Isn’t it great to be in love?

The fights for trivial reasons, the drama, the fake anger, the tears … and last but not the least the making up

7 things I wanna achieve

Things I want to achieve:-

1. Show my parents that I care, call frequently, and visit them more often. Spend some time with them instead of spendin all my time with P.

2. 60 Kgs – target weight.

3.  Be more careful. I am currently too careless and maybe a little too self-centered. I do not realise when I unknowingly hurt people. I have to realising such stuff and try to be less self-centered.

4. Drive a vehicle . Doesn’t matter if its a two-wheeler or a four wheeler.

5. Get back to reading. I have quite a few e-books. Plus, hyderabad has a very awesome place where you can buy books dirt-cheap. It is like heaven to me

6. Learn being more considerate and being lil more practical from P.

7. Control my tears.

Job life Vs student life

As a post grad student, I used to be very curious as to what these “working” people actually do for 8-10 hours a day. How can anyone have so much work? and even if they do, isn’t it too boring to monotonously work for so many hours at a stretch. Being a student I was used to not having  a lot of work(academic) and whatever work I had I used to finish it asap so most of my day used to go watching movies on the computer or spending time with P(whenever he was in town). I never needed to work more than 3 hours a day. Being the restless person I am, I used to look forward to a job where I would be busy for so many hours (hopefully working on something I’d enjoy) and not worry about how to kill time.

With 4 months on my first job I am completely disillusioned. I am fed up of the job already. I have absolutely nothing to do the whole day. I go to office hoping there would be some work atleast. The amount of work that I usually have takes around a maximum of an hour. With the job scenario as it is currently, I cannot afford to lose my current job. I hate the fact that I have to live away from my family and P. I took this job in the first place because it was supposed to be a good company and I could get a nice work-ex. Plus the fact that I am to marry soon and I would not want to live in different city after marriage. So, this was the only time I had to do this kind of stuff.

I know that this is a wrong time to feel self-pity, especially considering the state of the job market, I should be glad just because of the fact that I have a job, and a high paying one at that. But, crib I am gonna, coz I can . I am just keeping my fingers crossed and hoping they give me some decent work soon.

P.S: The only good part of this whole ‘not-having-much-work-at-office’ thing is that I can go to the gym regularly for 2 hours and have a good workout.

Mumbai terrorist attacks

Letter to the PM:

http://www.rediff.com/news/2008/dec/04mumterror-a-letter-to-the-prime-minister.htm

Very well written.

Am I paranoid?

Things nowadays don’t seem so great between us.. Is it just me or the passion that we had has lessened a lot over the 3 years of our relationship. I get the feeling that we know each other too well. There is nothing new and exciting about us. This happens mainly when I see someone who has a newer relationship and is in the early days of courtship. I try to reassure myself by thinking that it is just that they are in the “phase”, when we were at that stage it was the exact same for us. When a relationship matures, it automatically becomes not so exciting, but very satisfying and peaceful. There is security in knowing you love someone and that the person loves you back.

The loss of initial excitement sometimes disappoints me. But knowing what I have with him, realising how much we care for each other, the level of comfort that we have is amazing. The feeling of satisfaction, complete peace and calm that I have whenever I am with him reassures me that we are meant to be with each other.

The main issue I feel is due to the fact that we have not been in the same city for a long time. When we are away ( we have been away for a lot of time, our long distance relationship has been going on for too long ) I sometimes feel insecure. I doubt the love I have for him. I feel infinitely guilty about these feelings.

Does this happen with everyone? or is it just me??

Long time no see

Hadn’t written a post since a long time. Mainly because I gave the link of my blog to a couple of close friends. Since then the anonymity has disappeared leading to me ceasing writing of blog posts. But now I hope that people have long forgotten that I gave them this link .

Much has happened since I stopped posting. I have joined my new job@Hyd. I now have some idea what work life means. I have started living away from my own family in true sense. I used to stay in hostel during postgrad, but that doesn’t count since it was in the same city as my home and  could go home anytime I felt like.

Living alone teaches a lot of things. For instance, I have started cooking!!!! For people who know me in real life this is a huge deal. Its not like I never cooked before, but it was usually coz I was forced to. I used to hate cooking, thinking why is it that the female of the house is expected to cook, while the man leisurely reads newspapers or watches TV. I still think that way, but now, I know that if need be I can cook a decent meal.

Apart from this, I also have a lot of free time, now that P and I are no longer in the same city, and since my job isn’t too hectic. This was one of the reasons leading to my brainwave of revamping my blog

Anyway this post is just a welcome back post for myself. More to follow later.

Till then,

ciao