Things nowadays don’t seem so great between us.. Is it just me or the passion that we had has lessened a lot over the 3 years of our relationship. I get the feeling that we know each other too well. There is nothing new and exciting about us. This happens mainly when I see someone who has a newer relationship and is in the early days of courtship. I try to reassure myself by thinking that it is just that they are in the “phase”, when we were at that stage it was the exact same for us. When a relationship matures, it automatically becomes not so exciting, but very satisfying and peaceful. There is security in knowing you love someone and that the person loves you back.
The loss of initial excitement sometimes disappoints me. But knowing what I have with him, realising how much we care for each other, the level of comfort that we have is amazing. The feeling of satisfaction, complete peace and calm that I have whenever I am with him reassures me that we are meant to be with each other.
The main issue I feel is due to the fact that we have not been in the same city for a long time. When we are away ( we have been away for a lot of time, our long distance relationship has been going on for too long 
) I sometimes feel insecure. I doubt the love I have for him. I feel infinitely guilty about these feelings.
Does this happen with everyone? or is it just me??
It is definitely NOT paranoia. As time marches on in a relationship, the initial lust becomes peaceful loving and caring. That endures!
Comment by chanceencounters — December 4, 2008 @ 4:28 pm
Thanks for you comment chanceencounters.
Feeling better already
Comment by S — December 4, 2008 @ 4:30 pm