(Posting something I wrote months ago on a trip I made to Ahmedabad)
Reached Ahmedabad yesterday night. Aaj walk karat hote, ektich 
. Missed him terribly. The walks we have had here in the colony have been extremely memorable. We have discussed a lot of things, from his brothers fiancé, to my opinions, to seeing beautiful peacocks to jogging in the morning. The times we have spent together in this huge house have been amazing too. I don’t remember a single moment that we have been apart for (except for sleeping & loo visits 
) when both of us were in this house. We used to spend all the time either playing spider solitaire on his lappie, or watching some movie/serial again on his lappie. It is difficult to come in this house, and be alone. Knowing he is far away in Mumbai, working his ass off. Every room in the house reminds me of some or the other incident that has happened between us there. The garden, the walks everything, just keeps torturing me . The only positive outcome of this trip has been that I have realized how much I really love him. And that I can’t really live without him. All the rona-dhona apart, I took a walk today. I Got bored of the lappie and internet. Since I had no one but myself to talk to, I decided to evaluate myself and him. Just for fun. I have never done that before. All I did was a simple pro-con list. Turned out he had many more pros than I did. Which was not a surprise btw .
So, lets start with him.
Pros – Extremely caring, sensitive, gels very well with family (can handle my family better than I can) , knows and shows that he cares, very hardworking and intelligent, has worked hard and is now very fit(hunk!!!) extremely mature, gives very good advice ( he is obviously the first person I consult whenever I need any), handles my crying very well
Cons- can ramble at times(can’t get him stop, we go round in circles discussing the same thing over and over again and I am too much of a coward to tell him this on his face), may get angry for trivial reasons( has reduced a lot) , but is reasonable and will accept his fault if you can convince him of that.
Me: Pros- Hardworking, sincere, care for people, sort of intelligent and (I have him 
)
Cons- Insecure about looks, intelligence, low confidence, don’t know when it is important to show that I care, logical arguments neet nahi jamat(though I am improving by the day), find it difficult to stand up against people.
